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Hi:
I found this by accident, and once I started reading, I couldn't stop.
Your story brought tears to my eyes. I went through the same thing early last year. Twice!! I lost both my beloved pets exactly a month to the day apart. And I was in my early
stages of pregnancy at the time. It was the worst time of my life. I loved them both dearly, but my 'Muffin' (Choo-Choo) was the apple of my eye, and I know I will never get over losing her. I
still cry an awful lot just remembering them both.
Did you find that a lot of people didn't understand the pain? My friends knew how much I loved my animals, but found them terribly unsupportive.
I have also written to two psychics asking if there is an afterlife for animals. I have desperately wanted there to be, and you have given me faith. I had promised both of them, that one day
I would look for them again.
I have since had a baby girl, who is now 6 months old, and I can honestly say, the love I feel for my animals is just as strong as the love I have for her. Can you understand this? And I
really love my baby!
It was nice just to read your story, and see that there are people who feel the same strength of love for their animals. Not a day goes by that I don't think of my Moet and Choo-Choo.
Watching Moet die was soooooo hard, and Choo-Choo waited till she was away from me before dying. I honestly think she knew it would be too hard for me to watch her. I didn't know she was
dying, but she did. She kissed me on the nose the last chance she had. As a matter of fact, so did Moet. Although these memories are beautiful, they cause so much pain and heartache. They
were my babies, my loves and my life.
Choo-Choo used to come to me in my dreams, and every time I would wake up, I would kick myself for not grabbing her and giving her a big hug in my dream. Before she died, she had a medical smell
to her. She'd had stitches, and she smelt medical. If you know what I mean. Since she has died, I have still smelt that smell at various places. It is a very distinct smell. You can't
mistake it for anything else.
I know and understand your pain so much! I feel it everyday since they have died. Whilst they were alive, I used to think how lucky they were with their life. Now I wonder if there was
anything else I could have done to make it better. Isn't it amazing how we love to feel guilty?
Thank you for your story. I hope Muffin visits you often, and if so, please tell Muffin to find my Moet and Choo-Choo, and tell them its time for a visit!
Regards,
M J
MJ:
You are being visited by them now. They are trying to let you know they are there in your dreams and with the odors. Talk with them. They can hear you. There is truly an
afterlife for animals just as there is for us.
People who do not know the love of one such as Choo-Choo, have no idea how we can love little ones as we do. Until they have felt that love, they can't truly understand. If there were more
people in the world who loved animals, as we do, then there would not be as much violence.
Even though I know my Muffin is back, she is not the same as she was before and I still cry over the physical loss of her but I am glad that I now have two little ones to love too.
The knowledge and memory of love is worth the loss.
Da Juana
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